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I'll just start by saying the uneven response, the inconsistent behavior -- locally, nationally, internationally -- and the fact that we've know this was coming for so goddamn long, is driving me nuts. The fact that you can't even prepare without people telling you Covid-19 is just like the flu? Duuuude. Prepare to watch 18% of the older people around you die. That's the percentage in Italy. This is not the flu. It's just unspeakable how confused people are. The situation is custom-designed to frustrate and upset me. It triggers ALL OF THE THINGS.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I might be lucky. Since 2013 I have been recovering from a serious accident. Six of those years were having major bones surgeries. Most of that time was in isolation, in a lot of pain. I get feeling scared about your health and feeling scared about money, what will happen next, the outside world. I am on the other side of it. It is going to be okay. After my last series of accidents I bought myself a really nice violin, something I always wanted, and started playing again. This time, a really nice mandolin. I learned how to sew. I grew an amazing vegetable garden where bunnies and hawks and hummingbirds come to visit. I testify about health care and disability rights at my state capitol, and that government is working fine. If you are going to be dealing with an apocalypse, isolated from society, focus on the things you can control and make something good. You are going to be a better person, find good people, do good things, and make the world better. It will be okay.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'll tell you who I'm tired of. All the dudes in my life acting like 1950's man's men all puffing out like it's an exaggeration, "more people die from the flu, this too shall pass" bullshit. While women are planning. I'm sick of being considered an alarmist. I was made for this. Plan for the worst, hope for the best. My spouse keeps forgetting to wash his hands like it's nothing. I seriously told him if he keeps being so flippant, if he gets sick, I'm leaving him behind when the Apocolypse comes.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I work at a large venue (very close to NYC) and the leadership refuses to cancel performances unless the state prevents public assembly WHICH IS INSANE. We have South Korean and Iranian performers canceling because we won't. The more data and response studies I consume, the more manageable it actually feels...what scares me is how data illiterate people in power are proving themselves to be.

I'm also frustrated by the kneejerk reaction against quarantine. Quarantine =/= air is poison!!! Quarantine is the answer because it would stagger the influx of cases and account for incubation and testing lag. It's a method of helping an already overtaxed system (of people and SUPPLIES) succeed at its job. It's very simple.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

My wedding is in 6 (5?) weeks. If this process wasn't stressful enough, we're now dealing with the heartwrenching reality that none of our grandparents/any close family friend over 65 is likely to make it. I feel extremely alone, sad, and stupid for mentioning to anyone about how the pandemic is affecting my wedding and the amount of money we might lose if we cancel. We've been looking forward to this for so long, and now it's clouded over by this.

[In all seriousness, we may easily be losing thousands of dollars if we have to postpone or cancel. The wedding industry is one giant unregulated bitch.]

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Thank you for this. I'm caught between trying to be a voice of calm to reassure my very worried elderly parents, while secretly freaking the f*ck out myself. Heather - I was so planning to follow your advice to aggressively pursue joy this year, but I don't know how to do it as the moment, when I'm semi quarantined and can't make any plans. Any ways people are low-key pursuing joy right now?

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

It feels like a hurricane. Something is coming. We're not quite sure of the timing. We know vulnerable people are at risk. All we can do is hunker down and take care of each other.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

As an introvert, “self isolating” is my new excuse for backing out of social engagements.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I am a deacon in a denomination that will be splitting up soon, and our regional leadership is more preoccupied with how much property they can leave with in the divorce settlement rather than the fact that a lot of their congregations are made up of the highest risk groups for negative outcomes with COVID-19. And so they have issued exactly no information to help any of their pastors handle questions about communion, interpersonal contact, visitation of shut-ins, etc.

So here is what I am doing. I am working with my mentor (a chaplain) as well as some medical professionals to do a comprehensive writeup of guidance for our pastors and congregations. If all of this ends up being a nothingburger and I get branded as hysterical, fear-mongering, and a Debbie Downer, well, I will live with that, because I'd rather know that I tried to do something than did nothing and then had to bury my parishioners.

I think the worst part is the dread of waiting. It's like just before Minas Tirith gets attacked by the host of Mordor, and the Nazgul are flying around overhead spreading fear all the time. /nerdreference

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I was supposed to get "define-the-relationship-talk" drinks with the guy I've been dating tomorrow, which is already a way overdue, anxiety-inducing conversation that's been on my mind, but as I'm immunocompromised and in NYC (which has GOT to already be a hotbed of unconfirmed cases), I think I'm just gonna have to cancel. I already pushed it and met the guy for dinner 2 weeks ago when he had a cough. I will not be dying for this man.

But now there's a very strange and unexpected feeling of: not only do I feel physically restrained from having this very nagging and important conversation to speak what's been on my mind but now the chances of us losing touch and just drifting apart/mutually ghosting feels very likely BECAUSE we haven't been able to have the talk.

But I think also maybe he's just not that into me and I feel him pulling away and I can't pull him back now that we're both literally forced back into solitude.

So maybe it's for the best? I don't know. #LoveInTheTimeOfCoronavirus

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm just astounded by how many people aren't canceling Spring Break plans to the most crowded destinations in America because they don't want to not go on vacation.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Grl thank you for this thread. I’m at the base in VA where someone has it, and I am one of the few self-quarantining. So many people are saying it’s like the flu it’s maddening. Also, would love to know the real numbers of who is sick in the US but there is ZERO chance that is going to happen anytime soon. The waiting is maddening.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Seattle has been pretty surreal these past few weeks. It's nearly a ghost town, and most grocery stores are strictly limiting purchases of toilet paper and hand sanitizer (and some are out of both entirely!). There's also just a *vibe* in the air, with a lot of people (understandably) trying to make it clear with their body language they don't want other people coming near them.

As far as coping, I've been trying to lean more into my introverted-ness and stay home as much as I can. It's been easy enough, because every time I go outside my brain immediately convinces me I'm covered in germs and must shower immediately.

In any case, all the best to everyone! This is a stressful time, and the government's bungling of it is definitely disheartening, but I hope nobody is feeling overwhelmed by the stress of it all!

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Oof. I indefinitely-postponed a move to New York that I've been waiting TWO YEARS for. The waiting came at the expense of my mental and emotional wellbeing, but was necessary. Interestingly, the pause feels anxiety-provoking, but also like relief. More than one thing can be true at a time. Silver linings.

I'm also trying to "break through" as a "writer" somewhere with a pitch entitled "In the Wake of Coronavirus, Human Connection is More Important Than Ever." I've only gotten rejections thus far, but like, the nice kind of rejection where they ask you to pitch again in the future. Silver linings.

I also found this collection of Sharon Salzberg meditations: https://soundcloud.com/sharonsalzberg. She even has one for election season. Silver linings.

My creative well ran dry over the weekend, but because I'm stuck at home, a weed muscling through a crack in my driveway sparked a new essay. Silver linings.

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I just invested in the criterion channel. $100 for a year. And I’m gonna read every book in my home and I’m making reading lists on my own newsletter. Also concerned about income as I freelance.

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The more I panic, the more ambitious my baking becomes. So, I'm learning to make sourdough bread.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I am supposed to leave for Europe in three weeks. It's a trip I've been planning for months. Everything is paid for. I have appointments and visits with friends who I haven't seen in 7 years. I'm starting to think I may have to cancel and it's absolutely crushing me. I feel selfish for being so devastated. I feel selfish for keeping my plans. I already canceled a trip to visit my elderly parents next week. I'm trying to keep the perspective that these choices will serve the greater good, but it sucks and it hurts and I don't know what to do.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm 6 months pregnant and I'm mad as heck because last time I was pregnant was during the Zika thing, topped off by a Category 5 hurricane coming through right around my due date. I feel the same ball of anxiety I did then, trying to manage all the impossible contingencies I can't even know about. because everything is changing every day.

My husband and I both work from home, so I'm not too worried about us, but my daughter attends pre-school and has asthma, and several of my loved ones are immune compromised.

I don't know how I'll work and take care of my daughter when they inevitably close her preschool, I'm not prepared to stay home with a toddler and a newborn, I can't quit my job, and we don't have help. On top of everything, I had major PPD after my daughter was born, in part from being too isolated, so I was hoping to get out of the house more this second time around. It's looking like it could be worse.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Just had long back and forth with friend on text with her saying, but "it's just the flu" and "I'm carrying on as normal until I hear otherwise" and "if you've got no symptoms I don't see any need to change your behaviour". I've tried saying its not just about healthy individuals but us all playing our part, and she is someone willing to listen (I sent her Anne Helen Petersen's great piece from today and she promised she would read it)...but I still get the impression she thinks this is *my* anxiety - she's listening to my worries and concerns as you'd listen to any friend who is worried about something, but she still thinks it's my overreaction. How do you deal with situations like this? When I think about the fact others don't think this is serious, and that might be making things worse, I get so riled up. I want to shake the whole world by the shoulders! (and then swiftly wash my hands afterwards, obviously).

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I know I’m losing it. I’ve been having my kids wash hands like maniacs. I have lung issues so I am unusually paranoid.

So I went to the store after school

drop off to buy food and rubbing alcohol, and the workers there were telling me it’s being exaggerated in the news and not to worry. I told them they’re wrong; it will be worse. This was the third store I’d been to and they didn’t have any either.

Then I went to the pet store to buy dog food. I complimented them on their Purell at the counter. The girl said “oh it’s not going to be that bad” and I told her, No it will be a lot worse.

Then at the second Target I went to, they got a new shipment of hand sanitizer, rubbing alcohol and aloe Vera on Aisle K and I put some in my cart. Five minutes later I thought, gee I should get some more and give it to the teachers at my kids’ school so I went back to aisle K and I am not lying, it was all gone. Five minutes.

I asked the clerk what happened. He said, I don’t know I just stocked it but people are crazy and they’re over exaggerating and I heard on the news it’s not going to be that bad, so I interrupted him and said “You watch Fox News don’t you?” And he said yeah and I said, Brother, it’s going to be a lot worse than you’ve heard. Go tune in to another news source.

They were all young. They’re going to love forever. I am in my late 50s, I’ve had pneumonia a lot in my life, and what few gay men friends I have are all immunosuppressed in their mid-70s.

And the Target was unusually empty. Five minutes.

I got a callback from my doctor at Kaiser. She said she was told they would have plenty of test by the end of the week, but now she’s being told that the CDC is not allowing testing unless you meet strict criteria. Kaiser is trying their best to secure a private source of testing, because they think the CDC is for shit. I got a callback from my doctor at Kaiser. She said she was told they would have plenty of test by the end of the week, but now she’s being told that the CDC is not allowing testing unless you meet strict criteria. Kaiser is trying their best to secure a private source of testing, because they think the CDC is for shit

So yes. I need a forum to freak out. Thanks Heather. And when did you get blonder? Did I miss something?

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I was already mad about working in a corporate office every day and seeing the daily injustices and lack of empathy or compassion for the human beings in their employ. But now I'm more mad that we are fully set up to work from home but they're saving it for a last resort and the main concern seems to be: How can we keep the business running 110% if we are forced to let our employees work from home? Everyone develop a Work From Home action plan! We can't let Covid-19 kill Capitalism! Anyway, I'm angry a lot. It's my birthday Friday and I'm getting drunk (with my hand sanitizer in hand! did I mention I also have OCD?) to cope. #donthugyourocdfriendswearenotok

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm in Oxford and one of the student is a confirmed case. I have no idea how to proceed. I'm very behind on my dissertation and need to use the library so I just keep going (??), surrounded by my tower of books and everyone in the room freezing every time someone coughs.

My grandmother is back in Ohio and I can't get her to believe the crisis is real because she is an avid Fox-news-watcher. Also, my boyfriend and I almost broke up last weekend. All the sands under my feet feel sticky and shifting at the same time. It's so whiny, but what about my ability to finally start my career after a million years of grad school? I already knew it was a massive, uphill slog to break into academia and now I'm boomeranging between self-interested despair that the disrupted markets will tank university hiring even further, and more existential despair about where our society in general will be left in the near future...

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm young and healthy but right smack in the middle of getting out of a truly shitty marriage and newly living on my own after 10 years of living with somebody, and I am terrified of getting sick with no one to take care of me. Selfishly, it also doesn't feel fair of the universe to pull this now, when I was just starting to think I was through the worst of it, that I could start living my life.

Up until last night I was waiting and waiting and waiting for the university that I work for to switch to work from home. Everyone in my department took laptops home to check that they could work from home if necessary. I had a conversation with my supervisor about how our office would handle mail if we were working from home.

Last night my supervisor told me that the big boss hopes to keep us all coming into the office until someone on our eight person team gets sick. By which time, of course, it will be too late and we all will have have been exposed. There are already two staff on campus who are quarantined and being tested for COVID-19, and apparently 30 people in town who were exposed at an off campus party that two people who had attended the Biogen conference and tested positive attended. So it's clearly here already and all I want to do is hide in my apartment, but of course I can't do that because big boss thinks it's more important for us to be on campus for... his convenience, I guess?

Bluh, I'm scared.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I am so scared and so angry. I am 26 and healthy. It’s not me that I’m scared about, however, I am in NYC and my job is requiring that I keep coming in even as we find cases in the building I work in. My company is acting like we’re disposable and prioritizing the business, which isn’t a surprise but is extremely jarring when everyone else is getting to work from home. They even have cleaning staff disinfecting “affected areas” without informing them that they were affected!!! It’s so fucked up and I’m so angry and so scared.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I live in Brooklyn, alone (well with my two fur-babies -- THANK GOD). I already work from home. I'm very independent, but prone to bouts of severe clinical depression, and part of my self-care is making sure I interact with other people every day.... Canceling all plans seems like a recipe for a melt-down for me. Does social distancing mean no dinner with friends? No socializing? This is all so confusing.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I was in New Orleans during Hurricane Katrina, and this all reminds so much of that. A pretty big problem that comes from nature, turned into a massive problem from human incompetence and people's belief that nothing bad can ever happen because it hasn't happened yet. We watched the storm on television and made fun of the newscasters' frantic predictions while we waited hours for evacuation. It wasn't even going to hit us directly. It wasn't even going to be as strong as they said. Well, we ended up being right! And still the levee broke. And, later, we watched people die on television, even though we ourselves had been safe the whole time.

When I got evacuated from the hurricane, I transferred to a university back in my hometown and studied evolutionary biology. We learned about emerging diseases and speculated about how long it would be before a new virus came from China. There were reasons it would come from bats, flying disease reservoirs, crossing the border between wildlife and livestock. We learned about how fast a virus can travel around the world, how a long incubation period is bad, how it's dangerous when you feel ok at first--and keep sharing the virus. Honestly, we thought it would all happen a lot sooner.

People keep telling me not to be afraid and not to panic. I'm not afraid! I'm seeing a storm form off the coast, and our weak protections about to fall. I just don't want to watch people die on TV again, wondering why nobody did anything to stop it.

Don't be afraid, but please take this seriously. Look out for your family and neighbors. We're not in a normal situation and things won't be normal for a long time.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

My roommate and I are in our late 20s but we've gotten so into FIDGET SPINNERS, it's not even funny. Honestly very soothing especially as someone with major anxiety that often manifests in compulsive skin picking.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

My anxiety is spiraling out of control. I’m trying to meditate (insight timer app) and read and watch some old movies on Kanopy (thanks to my local library!) but nothing is helping. My therapist made a joke that she thinks everyone has the virus because people are coming in sick and I just stared at her. So that’s where I’m at. Sorry I don’t have anything more positive to contribute. Going to try out an Agnes Varda film and see how that goes. Sending everyone calmness and whatever else they may need at this time. <3

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I wanted to post this picture [but can't, so I will describe instead] of my dog sleeping peacefully beside my lap/laptop, her peaceful mind unfettered by worries of coronavirus, while I troll the internet mercilessly.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

It’s my birthday today, so I’m trying to ignore it, while wondering it’s all going to burn down, with both corporate response and schools closing down. Even one of my cats started sneezing this week.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I am trying very hard to be calm, but I'm in a position at work that can't work from home and our owner has gone full panic mode- no one is supposed to speak to each other in person, the mailman isn't allowed in the building and the mail has to be picked up with gloves, we're supposed to use a tissue to open doors- it's so, so hard to focus on not freaking out being in this environment all day!

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Me, thanks for asking! I have six weeks of working-from-home while I'm between (stressful, but meaning-and-structure-providing) jobs, during which I must 1) finish a long-procrastinated-upon doctoral dissertation, 2) clean my disgusting home from top to bottom, and 3) rebuild my social life from the ground up as part of my own aggressively-pursuing-joy project. Now we're gonna add 4) parent my three-year-old full-time when his daycare closes, as it almost certainly will, and 5) waste many hours obsessively watching coronavirus twitter with morbid fascination. Oh and apparently 6) wetly grieve my unexamined shame while reading recent Ask Polly columns that describe my life. Looks like I will not be having people over for dinner parties or barbecues in the near future, so a good part of 3) is nipped in the bud, and 5) is really getting in the way of 1). At least 2) is about halfway there!

For tasty snacks, I will offer that lunch today was five fat medjool dates swimming in a pool of melted Brie. Can recommend.

Thanks for everything you write and for starting this thread and tweeting it out. Hope it helps.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Started a work from home job last month. I’m not sure what I would’ve done if I were still in the old office today. So many layers of fuckery avoided. I’ve been working on my couch, or today from bed, under blankets with my comfiest pillows. I’m detaching from the rigidly enforced workflow and schedule, anchored my kid’s needs and a once-weekly in-office meeting.

Your words were such a timely gift in my email this morning, I really am learning to ease my grip on the toy car’s steering wheel. So far, no crashes.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I feel really sad and scared for everyone who will be struggling financially. I’m going to make a donation to my local food bank.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I’ve been working on getting my friends to understand for months... just now some coming around but not all. Luckily my parents are more willing than most to listen to my anxiety (which wasn’t misplaced this time!!) so they’ve been prepping and keeping very clean habits. I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop and people to really realize what’s going on. I think it’ll be 2 weeks at most but by then that’s pretty late

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this shit is dumb af lol.

watching people with real power cape for the market while knowing in the back of their heads that millions of lives are at risk is trying.

motherfuckers have never even heard the word responsibility.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I genuinely am so afraid! My brain won't shut off. I keep trying to block the twitter app from my phone in an effort to stop reading disaster threads but I keep unblocking it eventually. I live alone, and so the prospect of indefinite isolation is really scaring me, though I have ZERO problem with doing it in order to help contain a pandemic (of course). What I really worry about is if I get the virus, no one will be able to take care of me, and I have asthma, which makes it scarier. So it seems to make sense to isolate now, before that becomes a worry.

But people are everywhere! No one seems to be isolating that much yet! (I am in Toronto.)

Anyway, just adding to the chorus of "yeah, holy shit, this is really scary and also confusing as hell". You can't turn this one off. It's terrifying.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Very freaked out. Worried about my kids who are both in university settings (though one is switching to online classes). Worried about my parents who are both 80+. I feel like we are watching a horror film play out in real time. Trying to cope by lots of reading (heavy dissociating haha) and online shopping which threatens to escalate.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm fully losing it. Based in London. We work in dance music and all these events are getting cancelled in Europe. I agree its the right thing to do, of course it is -- but financially this could fuck up our business for a long time. And more events will be cancelled and probably in the UK too but we have no idea for how long. We own our own company so nobody is there to rescue us. No schools in London are closed yet and I'm worried about my daughter taking the bus and being exposed. The UK government doesn't seem to take it seriously and I hate Boris. /endrant

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I am not worried. I know this is wrong, because a rant I went on the other day had substantively similar content to one Trump went on.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm not sure how the world keeps seeming to get worse, and then I look back at something like the Iowa Caucus and it was... only... 5 weeks ago... when my concern at that moment caucusing was that Pete might win the nomination. I was an idiot. And here in the US, the GOP has of course made this into part of their disinformation campaign. Nothing can make them stop being like this, not even possibly dying.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm feeling relief in this moment because I convinced my parents not to travel to a major metro area on the east coast (but they are still planning to do some travel in the region, by car). But a friend who just returned from a long trip abroad is now in self-quarantine with a cough and slight fever, so I am both worried for her and hoping that she is not worrying too much. I work in public health so I find myself flipping between my rational, professional take on this and my tendency to be a worrywart in general. I am heartbroken that the response has been so mangled in the US and that the changes of us having a public health insurance system anytime soon appear to be slipping through our fingers...

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I am in London, UK, and we are facing the same confusion. My mind keeps bouncing between 'this is fine, just a flu' and 'this could jeopardize everything in my life and I may eventually carry a virus that will kill people who are in worse health than me.' So my 'solution,' for now at least, is to focus on taking care of myself, using this at-home time to sleep well, read a lot, cook, clean (but not in a kill-all-the-bacteria-or-you'll-die way). I have limited my time on public transport, and my partner comes to stay with me most days of the week so that we both don't get mad. It is helpful to share your doubts and anxieties with someone as confused as you *and* someone who wants to take care of you, whatever happens. I also try to limit my time reading news about the virus to the bare minimum, because there are so many contradictory messages. I have chosen to make a few safety choices, and I follow updates on the spread, but I don't think I need to read every single horror story about the situation in Italy, for instance.

Also, I have spent a lot of money on flights for a little trip in North America in April and am now starting to really worry that I will loose all that money. I don't know how to take that, to be honest, but it seems clear that a lot of people will be put in perilous financial situations because of this virus. I hope governments will rise up to the challenge but I'm not very optimistic...

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm 72 with some health conditions, and I am a bit nervous about how this is going to play out, but not to the point where I am losing sleep over it

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

thus far, the only confirmed cases in my state are all in my county. I just spent my weekly therapy session examining how my anxiety regarding COVID-19 IS warranted. We discussed healthy ways of responding to the terror/fear/etc by thinking through ways of responding that are within my control, such as: stocking up (but not crazily so) on non-perishable food items, staying in as much as possible, working from home; all feasible and reasonable responses. However, I left the session and felt overwhelmed by a sense of hopelessness and sadness. Like: exactly HOW much should i buy since the duration is of unknown length? at the store i overheard several elderly folks asking for aloe so they could make their own hand sanitizer and it made me want to cry because everyone seems so scared and fragile. and also: if you're super old and retired, just STAY HOME dudes! you don't need hand sanitizer at home, you can wash yer hands with soap! ugh. i don't know. there's just an eerie sense of precipitous dread.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

Love you! My family and nearly all my friends live in Italy, and there’s a way to keep going even if you have to stay at arm length from anybody else. They say there’s a new code of kindness in keeping the distance, yielding, smiling because we all are in this together. I’m hopeful. Let’s have a walk together if you’re in Silver Lake! 😊

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I'm waiting for my classes to get cancelled. My roommates are more worried than I am, so I'm being extra careful for their sake. My mom calls more often--I don't tell her how much I appreciate it because that's not how we work, but I think she knows.

Sending love and homemade brownies.

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

This too shall pass. Sending love and ease to everyone. <3

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Mar 11, 2020Liked by Heather Havrilesky

I've been planning on relocating for more career opportunities in April and I graduated into the end of the recession. I am freaking out about when I finally am in an ok place job wise that I might be job searching in another recession. I am also doing some consulting work from home so having a ton of time to be on the internet is...not great.

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How are people who are social distancing handling the “want to go to the gym, meet for a drink, etc” questions? Like boldly no fucking way or more like I’m busy and I’ll touch base later?

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